Your Regrets Are Late

Your Regrets Are Late C51-60

Chapter 51

“First of all…”


“Will you follow me?”


The butler led Charelize to the attic on the fourth floor, where the passage is blocked.

“Last time, I told you that my grandfather was exile from the Kingdom of Risperan.”

“Ah. I remember.”

“To be more specific, my grandfather… he is Prince Crose escort knight and lover.”

The butler said, taking the key out of his arms.

Princess Crose is originally the Duchess of Masetta.

“That…. what do you mean?”


“Even so, was the escort knight my grandmother’s lover?”

It may have been locked for a long time, or the doorknob is rusty so did not open easily.

“Is that really true?”

Charelize couldn’t believe what she just heard, she asked back with a stiff look on her face.

“How dare I… to tell a lie?”

The butler spoke without a single shudder.

At least it didn’t seem to be a lie.

At that moment, the door finally opened with a rough sound.

When I went inside, the first thing I noticed is a very small desk for a child.

Other than that, there were various items needed for living, including old beds.

Except for the breathtaking humid smell, and the dust flying in the air.

Until a few years ago, there were signs of someone living everywhere.

“This is where… Sir Raya stayed as a child.”

“It sounds like he grew up and living somewhere else.”

“That’s right.”

Charelize looked around the whole attic.

It was a very shabby room for the child who have blood of Duke of Marsetta.

However, there is something else that is more important.

“Your grandfather… May I ask the reason for his exile?”


The butler, who showed signs of hesitation for a while, told the story of his past.

* * *

Decades ago.

Queen Merien, who ruled the Kingdom of Risperan, had two daughters.

Her eldest daughter, Princess Hespia, lived a busy life from the moment she was born.

On the other hand, her second daughter, Prince Crose, had a very lively personality and she lived freely.

Princess Hespia always a model for others because of her calm demeanor.

Princess Crose, who has a bright nature, was loved by many.

However, not long after Princess Hespia received her official responsibilities. She suffered from an unknown disease.

She eventually died at an early age.

When She was young, she sent a national letter first and was alone for a long time.

Queen Merien had no intention of remarrying and seeing a new successor.

Thus, she taught Princess Crose the appropriate etiquette along with her cesarean lessons.

Although she is a child who loved to play, she wanted to develop the qualities of a ruler.

Unlike her predecessors, she became a very strict teacher.

Princes Crose is unable to fully mourn the sudden death of her sister.

She always been told that she’s the only hope, because she is the one and only precious royal descendant.

Aside from the burden, it was frustrating to move only on a fixed schedule.

First, she was not allowed to go out of the palace and play with the commoners for safety reasons.

Meeting aristocrats in private was also prohibited.

When her older sister, who greeted her with a smile, she just realized how much effort she put into that smile.

It was her escort knight that he spent most of his time with Princess Close.

They naturally developed into lovers.

The difference in status was too big, and they had to avoid other people’s eyes.

The couldn’t help but be even more affectionate.

Tired of meeting her lover in hiding, Princess Closet told Queen Merien to allow her to engage with the escort.

But Queen Merien immediately refused, saying she is no longer worthy of being heard.

The reason for this is that he is too old and he had a son who turned ten that year.

From that day on, she never did anything freely.

It always hadr not to be able to express her will.

Princess Crose suggested to her lover to run away and live together.

She feel sorry for the way her lover was in pain, but the escort officer was at a loss what to do.

Perhaps because it took too long, the plan was discovered before it could be realized.

Queen Merien threatened her escort knight with his son’s life.

In the end, the escort knight turned away from Princess Crose and ran away on that road.

Upon his arrival, he settled down completely in the Elioter Empire, where he lived alone with his son Sebastian.

Sebastian grew up well, married the daughter of a junior knight and had son of his own.

He became the servant of the Duke of Marsetta to do his duty as head of the household.

Around that time, due to the war started by Tithena I.

The Kingdom of Risperan is in the verge of destruction.

To end the war, Princess Crose, who was sent in exchange for peace, was forced to married with the predecessor Duke of Marsetta.

Over time, Princess Crose gave birth to two children at the same time after repeated miscarriages.

Just because they were twins, one child was taken away and the other couldn’t even meet.

In addition to that, seeing her husband continue to lead promiscuous lives with concubines, Princess Crose became depressed.

Suffering from auditory hallucinations and relieving her anger by throwing things around her, she gradually went crazy.

Meanwhile, Princess Crose, who happened to recognize Sebastian passing through the hallway, asked after her escort.

When she learned that her escort knight is alive, Princess Crose asked him to help her meet him.

Sebastian was afraid that if he refused, the unstable Princess Crose would make the wrong choice.

He has been asked several times for a very short time, and he often let them meet whenever she’s having a hard time.

This is soon reached the ears of the predecessor Duke Marsetta.

The predecessor Duke Marsetta sent a man to kill the escort knight.

Shortly after, he ordered the destruction of Sebastian, his wife, and his children.

The opposition of Prince Crose, who blocked him, is too strong, she asking him just to kill her.

The predecessor Duke Marsetta changed his mind and made Sebastian his butler.

Then, he put him closest to him and made him do all sorts of dirty work.

For example, like dealing with people who know the existence of Raya that shouldn’t exist in the world.

From that moment on, Sebastian is the only one able to stop the predecessor Duke Marsetta, who had a violent temper.

Even though he knew all the secrets, he gained enought trust that predecessor Duke Marsetta would never kill him.

Sebastian’s son, who naturally inherited his father’s work, became the butler of the next generation duke.

* * *

“…..are you surprised?”

“If I said no, it would be a lie. I didn’t know there was a story like this for the old butler.”

Asked by the butler if she was surprised, Charelize gave a honest answer.

“As for Sir Raya… I think it’s faster to show you the place than to tell you.”

The butler made an incomprehensible sound and suddenly pushed the desk to the side.

There is another hidden door on the wall.

When I unlocked the door, I saw a pretty long passage.

The butler lit a candlestick found in a box piled up in the corner and went into it.

“I have inherited what my father used to do… I’ve been in the Duchy since I was a child, and I grew up with the Duke and Sir Raya.”

“The predecessor Duke and his wife, why… did they hide the existence of their son?”

“It was entirely the will of the previous Duke.”

“What do you mean?”

“The Duchess….. immediately after giving birth, Sir Raya was taken away, and since she was unable to meet with the Duke, she fell into extreme depression.”

“To be taken away as soon as you were born….”

“Yes. All those who were present died immediately at the orders of the predecessor Duke.”

Charelize followed him and heard the story of her predecessor, Duke Marsetta.

“Twins are not a symbol of good fortune but… but that doesn’t mean punishment or a sin, right?”

No matter how many times I think about it, I didn’t understand what he did.

“I don’t know the details. However, my father told me… A few days before the scheduled date, the predecessor Duke had dream something.”


“Something happened to Raya in the form of an adult, and the Duke considered it as a foresight dream given by Goddess Resina….”

“I think it would be more cruel to get rid of children than to hide innocent lives by even killing them.”

Charelize was dumbfounded to have done that out of fear of something that would not happen.

“You know? in the Kingdom of Risperan, no matter the order of birth, only women can claim the throne.”


“It is because the mysterious blood flows only through women from generation to generation. It is only women who can use the power that comes with it.”

Buter suddenly changed the subject, make Charelize puzzled why suddenly talking about the right to  the throne in the Kingdom of Risperan.

“Don’t tell me….”

“Yes. It seems that the predecessor Duke is afraid of its power.”

“Didn’t you say it only flows to women?”

“Duchess did not speak of it. It was the last way to protect Raya.”

It wasn’t that I later regretted my mistake and saved it.

Before I even asked him why he suddenly changed the subject.

Charelize threw up her flag at the act of removing her life from the world, which she wanted to live alone until the end.

“This is…”

Eventually, she reached the end.

The place she arrived with a dazzlingly bright light is Charelize private library.

“This is where Sir Raya lived since he was 13.”

“My personal library, my mother built it for me… How can you him in a place like this?”

“About here… You said you found it, didn’t you?”

The butler correctly found the bookcase where Charelize found Raya’s diary.

“Yes. It is the same color leather as mine, so I looked it up and found it.”

“What Sir Raya wanted to find… is here as expected.”

“What he wanted to find?”

The butler said, a few days before the predecessor Duchess of Marsetta choose to die by her ownself.

To give Raya freedom, she locked the door to the attic where he lived as a child.

The place where he grew up was sealed with all her last remaining strength.

All she wanted is for him to live without any contact with Duke of Marsetta.

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