I don’t know how you, who don’t flow with Edelise’s blood, remembered everything and returned.
Charel. You loved me, but you didn’t look at me.
Every time I saw an empty eye somewhere, I felt like you were looking at someone else.
There was nothing in the eyes that looked at me.
I know you love me, so… I must have felt uneasy.
Even if I regret it late, I know you won’t forgive me.
I know my sins are not enough to be repaid for the rest of my life.
If I can go back, I will be a kind person to the baby and to you.
I’m sorry I made such a selfish choice until the end.
I broke the faith you gave me, and I didn’t believe in that love….
I’m really sorry, Charel.
* * *
“Marquis… have you read this?”
I didn’t know he had anything to do with Edelise.
Marquis Radiasa adopted Delphir, a child of his half-sister, and raised him like a child.
It was clear that he knew something about the ability to turn back time.
‘The two of us, we’ll leave for a while, little Duchess.’
That’s why he broke the glass bead and took his wife out after seeing Delphir shivering.
‘There will be a letter of broken engagement soon.’
‘If you leave the Marquis like this, you will be an enemy.’
That’s why I accepted the idea of breaking up the engagement.
“In his place… I beg your forgiveness. My son’s last… trace, so please….”
As Charelize tried to tear up the letter, Marquis Radiasa immediately knelt down and begged.
“How did I die….”
“Why did I give up the baby….”
Charelize crumpled the letter and threw it to the floor.
“To the end… Not once, You had intention to being kind to me.”
Then I looked at Delphir’s complexion, although pale, he had a very calm face.
He wore the two rings as the necklaces that we had used for the engagement.
‘Do you prefer a daughter or a son?’
‘…. doesn’t matter. As long as they look a lot like you.’
‘Yes, no matter what gender it is, it’s our kid. I… I want you to be a sweet father.’
‘Yes, you will.’
I’ve lived my whole life to get someone’s love and recognition.
It has become natural to be cautious in order to survive.
Charelize, who has lived like that, couldn’t have known.
Why are you lying to yourself and using honorifics?
She knew that Delphir’s sense of entitlement was born form the abuse of his biological mother.
I thought that if I waited while caring for his wound, he would have a real smile on his face one day.
“I need to talk to him, so please excuse me for a moment.”
Marquis Radiasa, who bowed to Charelize, went out.
She didn’t say anything for a long time and then slowly opened her mouth.
It’s been a while since I’ve called his name. Charelize did not speak in honorifics, nor did she call his nickname.
Once upon a time, like when they were lovers, Charelize called Delphir that way.
“If you die by stabbing with this… did you think you could go back?”
Of course there is no answer. Delphir is already dead.
“I was happy every moment with you… at least… you shouldn’t have said that.”
Now it was of no use that you didn’t know what Lillian had done was false.
Lillian only provided the cause.
‘All the time I spent with you is horrible.’
Such words came from the accumulation of time when he didn’t believe in me.
“To help you meet the baby… just the thought of it… to me who is barely holding back even thinking abut it because you’re so sorry?”
“Delphir, how could you do that.”
“…you bastard with no conscience.”
Charelize went outside and spoke to Marquis Radiasa.
“I’ve done what the Marquis wants, so I hope you’ll listen to what I’m saying this time.”
“…tell me, your Highness.”
“From now on… even if the body is missing, don’t send the seal ring through someone else.”
“I’ll give Maen back.”
The reason why I brought Maen is to make sure that I would never come again.
Charelize didn’t want to leave anything to do with Delphir around her.
That was the last time Charelize went to Marquis Radiasa.
* * *
Time flies like a rive, and the day has come before we know it, when we have to leave for the Peschte Empire.
“As much as you are going on behalf of the Elioter Empire, you have been told to keep your dignity.”
“…Anything else he said?”
“There’s nothing except for to told you to always take care of your health.”
“Take care of my health… Tell him I’ll keep it in my heart.”
“Yes, I’ll be going.”
A few days ago, the chief of servant brought in an official letter and delivered what Emperor Harbert IV had left behind.
Having completed all preparations, Charelize took Hailey with her.
She said she was fine, but it was obvious that Lari wasn’t feeling well.
It’s not easy to spend a few nights in a strange place.
I had to take a boat to get to the Peschte Empire, but Lari is particularly seasick.
Furthermore, it was inevitable to take care Lillian.
Whether I was conscious of the work of the predecessor Grand Duchess Innovestin, Lillian has not exchanged correspondence with Iris.
She stayed in her room for a while inside the mansion.
She didn’t come down to the dinning room to eat, nor did she visit the Duke Marsetta.
Also, she remained quiet all the way, only watching Charelize.
We took a boat from the port for two days, and the rest of the way was moved by carriage again to reach the Peschte Empire.
“I’m Charelize Elze Roxana von Marsetta, who was ordered to represent the Empire of Elioter under the command of His Majesty Harbert IV.”
Charelize went to Princess Casilla first.
“Once again. I’ll always pray for your happiness.”
“Thank you for coming, too. I didn’t expect the little Duchess to come as an envoy.”
Princess Casilla smiled lightly at the polite greetings of Charelize as if she had measured the angle.
“The person next to the little Duchess is….?”
“She’s Lillian Rudissa von Marsetta, your Highness the Princess.”
Since Lillian is very nervous when she saw Princess Casilla, Charelize replied instead.
“Oh, the new registration… Nice to meet you. By the way, you must be tired because you’ve come a long way, so you’d better rest now.”
“Thank you for your consideration.”
“Madame, show the little Duchess and the Princess where to stay.”
Princess Casilla, who showed little interest in Lillian, ordered the maid to guide her.
“This is the place, little Duchess.”
The place where the maid of honor led the way is one of the rooms in the palace where Princess Casilla is staying.
Missionaries from other countries often stayed temporarily after cleaning palaces that do not use special palaces.
“Say thank you again to Your Highness the Princess.”
Although there is such a thing as being one of the friends of the Peschte Empire, Charelize noticed that she was saving her face.
“The Princess will be staying at the Vadiljes Palace.”
“This room is prepared separately for the little Duches. All those coming from other places are at Vadiljes Palace, so don’t worry too much.”
The interior is very luxurious. As Lillian gleamed her eyes, the maid said embarrassingly.
“Lillian’s manners are not complete yet, so I’m afraid she’ll make a mistake to the aristocrats of other countries…. how can I left her alone.”
If this went on, it would have been as good as giving the results that Emperor Harbert IV wanted.
I explained as calmly as I could because I didn’t mean to embarrass the maid.
“Ah, then… I’ll be back after I ask your Highness, so could you wait a moment?”
As if she knew what I meant, the maid of honor nodded.
“There is no Duke here to protect you, nor lady Luxen..”
“I wish I didn’t have to worry about you.”
Taking advantage of the absence of a maid of honor who left for permission from Princess Casilla, Charelize warned Lillian.
“Your highness asks you to understand that she didn’t consider that part.”
“Yes, Princess, you can follow me.”
After a while, the maid of honor, with a gentle smile, took Lillian to the room across from me.
“Your Highness told me to take it separately, where should I put this?”
Charelize was lying in bed relieving her fatigue.
When Hailey took out the green jeweled necklace while organizing her luggage.
‘Take this to the Peschte Empire, and pass it on to Lanensia Xavi.’
‘If it’s a Lanensia Xavi…?’
‘She’s my old friend.’
I remembered what I heard from Empress Lireet in the Garden of Light.